life is passing real fast... it's gone b4 u can define wad GOOD things you had done so farx... 14 yrs past... and wad did i see? NOTHING much.. onli the strange mind of mine started to grow real fast... ewx... no more CHILDISH things i hope. *lyke fighting ova toys* carn believe tt's wad we were lyke wen we were deir age... u noe. 2 guys. 1 Pri 1 and other K2 fighting ova toys, paper aeroplanes and ova affections of adults... ewx.. carn believe we WERE wad they were lyke... me and jieyu was lyke lookin at dem FIGHTING... no QUARRELING... and could u believe it? dey quarrel in such a CHILDISH manner... *nanenanepoopoo* aw manx... not lyke how we quarrel.. in sum sort, a sophicated way... a more mature and more exceptable way... continue story... after looking at about a few minutes, we looked at each other and shook our heads... kayx. i muz admit. i supposed we did da same things wen we were young and i guess our case i well, sort of MORE serious? how do u expect it? 2 gals @ da same age, 1 older by 2 yrs and the other young by 3 yrs... our age gap is more close and more conflicts could b expected... bud, we grew up togeda. tt makes the house quiet for at least a moment or so. life is so 'cruel' in our family... first, Z grew up as the oldest of our 'gang'. she was given the most affection and pamper to. 2 yrs past. and i was out. most pamper and affection started to placed on me as i was young. bud, tis doesn't last long. 12 months lata, Y was out. pamper and affection (paa) is divided as we were almost of the same age. so not much difference. paa lasted on both of us for 3 yrs. by now, Z is already 5 yrs old and us, 3 yrs. now, W came. and paa is diverted to her. as i grew up wif Z. my relation wif her is FAR betta den mine wif Y. by now, W has the most paa and Z is neglected soon. W had paa on her for 5 yrs. for tis 5 yrsm Z is neglected and being looked as the eldest. wad we had done wrong is all pushed to her. whether we fell or wad, Z was always being scolded. 5 yrs lata, X came along. As he was the FIRST BOY. all attention were on him. soon, we were all TOTALLY forgotten about. no more paa. we were expected to mature as Z was 10. me was 9, Y was 8, W was 5. as i moved, our relations had once fell into a danger zone. we turned into complete strangers. not knowing what to talk about. But, as their 'eldest', we had the responsiblity to take good care of them when we went out to play. and tt was the tyme i scolded Y and W. Y is a gd sista who takes great care of her siblings. we were asked to return but W still wanted to play. Y lets her go. and i told her no. we sort of quarrel up and i couldn't forget how harsh i scolded dem. i still remember tis: "So wad if you were my cousin? i have the responsibility to take care of you and ask you to return home now. Don't cry infront of me. It is useless. go home now." yep. Y cried. i guess i was too harsh. I almost scolded Z too. she told me, "heyx. It's alright if we return home." bud i ignore her and say, "But we were asked to bring them home now. If we didn't, we will be scolded again!" and Z said, "never mind." Z is always tis great. and i was rite. As W and Y went hme crying. Z was being repriminded for makin dem cry. I was so remoseful tt moment. it was me, who make dem cry bud i yet doesn't have the courage to admit it. tt day, Z still makes us shakes hand and apologized. all thnks 2 her. lots of things happened in my childhood... and most of dem makes me love my family more...