u all doesn't noe how i feel!! how scared i am 4 all tis 2 happen!!!! y muz tinks happen till tis way? y carn we juz hab a nice lunch togeda 4 once???? i'm afraid... i truly does... i afraid tt u will realli leave us alone... i couldn't bear tinking of tt... wad shld i do?? i doesn't want to act happy animore... i nid family love... tt's all i ask frm u. y carn i hab it?? y muz u may life so miserable for all of us?? wad's gonna happen 2 tis family??? i used 2 told my frenws how cool or great my family is... how lovely it is.. bud it's all FAKE!!!!!!! i nvr lyke the feel of returning home... it's cold. it's scary... every1 is living wif a mask on their face... i realli feel lyke not returning at all... y muz tis happen?? y muz u tell me all tis??? i'm so afraid tt u will leave a day... i don't want!!! i want u 2 c my graduate frm my poly... or jc... i want u 2 witness my wedding!! i noe.. u are holdin on 2 tis b'coz of me... i'm still young... i noe i noe all of tt... bud wad's the used?? u say u may leave wen i graduate my sec school.. it's lyke 2 yrs lata?? i'm so afraid.. i'm so scared... i noe how u feel... bud dey doesn't... u muz say out... i noe it may caused some misunderstanding again... bud it's betta den wad is it now!!!!!!!! pls... let me grow up in a normal family can??? tt's all i am askin for rite now...