can i juz let u go.... can i do it so freely, so happily?

habben been tokin 2 u 4 6 days.. n i hab been tinkin... tinkin bout our problems n stuff lyk tt...

i guess... both of us r juz tired le.. tired of keepin the relation dar way we wan it 2 b... we r nort being our own self.. our smile... our emotions... all r fake... i can sense it... reallli.. ur smile... used 2 b so bright n cheerful... bud now... u seems to be fakin it all up... y is it lyk tt? dere was once.. u were all b urself lurrhs... so sad.. so down... i wanted 2 go over n care.. bud.. i didn't.. u oso once told me.. i'm treatin u so coldly... i noe tt.. i noe all tis myself... u tink i wan it? no.. i realli don wan it.. bud wad can i do? i'm realli clueless abt wad i could do... aftr all, i believe tt i don nid 2 show my care 4 u.. i believed tt.. i believe tt action speak louder de words... bud i guess, u don... all u wan is words n words... bud, tt's nort wad i wanted.. i wan actions.. n i guess, tis is oso a point tt makes us unable 2 communicate.

u oso once guessed how i'm realli feelin now.. n it's rong... n i oso guessed how u r feelin.. n i supposed i'm rong too.. guessin n guessin... carn we juz stop all tis? carn u juz ask me how i'm feelin? it may make u seem so unsensitive.. i noe. bud do u noe tt misunderstandin r caused by guessin? n i guess we hab lots of misunderstandin already bahs... n tis makes us unable 2 communicate too..

aftr tryin our best 2 communicate... aftr tryin... we wld end the conv in a unhappi manner... i dono y.. bud.. shannon told me tis.. i'm nort willing 2 c u leave me 1st... coz i hab seen u leave me alone b4... n u, u r holdin on 2 all tis too tightly.. i'm gibin u too much free space while u r tryin 2 gib me certain amount of free space... i guess it's all true bahs... by gibin u too much free space, u feel tt i'm too cold towards u... haiix... wad shld i do den? clinch on u?? i'm nort gonna do so... realli..

guess dar above obstacles r wad causes all tis problems 2 happen bahs... we hab notink in common 2 tok bout.. notink.. n i guess, i'm gettin used 2 comparin our case wif der other gals case... lyk u n her.. u 2 can speak freely togeda... work togeda... mayb bcoz u r in dar same skool n klass too bahs.. while i'm nort... guess it's realli tis problem...

i told myself tt i'm gonna settle all tis tonite.. wen i return frm sj... n i hope i hab der courage 2 ask u all tis... n i hope, u too, will hab der courage to tell me der truth.... no matter how much it realli will hurt, i realli hope tt wad i hear is truth... may god bless me n love ya...