i never knew that this kind of thing would blow up.
and become such a big problem.
and trouble.
a celebration,
that was thought to be of fun,
ended up with tears.
and conflict.
communication.
AGAIN.
the cause of the whole thing.
i guess.
the friendship just matters too much.
to me.
and her.
2 years.
i expected more.
something in return.
i thought,
it would be something that i could lean on.
yet.
i guess.
something's building up.
something that's blocking us.
stopping us from communication.
stopping us from telling each other how we feel.
i hate it.
why cant we be like what we used to be?
friends.
laugh.
fun.
joy.
and together.
i thought it would last.
i really thought so.
yet i should know,
there's no true friendship.
just like there's no true love.
no fantasy.
no dream.
the goals we had together.
the fun we enjoyed.
the smile that we laughed.
the tears that we shed.
memories.
all gone.