you never gave any explanations. letting my imagination goes wild. you dont care. i'm hurt. terribly hurt. do you sense it? friends? ha. normal? ha.ha. why not you being in my shoes, and let you see all this. in a public. yeahs. holding hands with other guys. hugging them in the public. and all the reasons that i gave is, we are friends. and it's normal. how would you then feel? sorry. i cant think normally now. or should i say, all girls who heard this would be fumming mad. yeeahhs. why not, let me try all this. do all you are doing. and i tell you it's really fine and normal? would you be as bothered? would you be as hurt? or would you just dont feel anything. because, you dont care? maybe... maybe... i'm just too naive. and fall for your sweet-nothings. maybe... maybe... you are never serious. never serious about what you says. it's true. that sometimes, i love you may reassure me. it's true. that your i love you may melt my heart. yet, when i witness all this myself, tell me. what should i believe? your i love you became so fake. so useless. so hurtful.... sometimes, i just hate you. i hate the way you control my mood, my life. i just hate the way you never failed to make me worry. make me bothered. you never failed. your moves. your actions... i just hate it. i dont want to look into your eyes. for i'm afraid... that i would give in again. why must it be you.... hurting me again and again? with the same reason? same moves? same actions? maybe, i should learnt from mistake. just like what they said, once bitten twice shy. yet why. the second. the third. the fourth time i got hurt, i never learnt and leave you far? why do i still get myself entangled in here? why cant you... just not hurt me once. the tears had run dry. no more for the next time. they heart had bleed clean. no more for the next time. the pulse had stopped beating, no more for the next time. yet, you always choose to revive me, when i'm almost dying and leaving. why let me go through the tormenting tortue? what had i done to deserve all those treats? why cant i get pampered by you just like what they do? why.... why is it you?

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sometimes,
i love you
is enough to reassure her.
sometimes,
i love you
is enough to melt her.
sometimes,
a glance
is enough to make her smile.
sometimes,
a smile
is enough to make her go wild.
sometimes,
something from you
is just so enough.
yet there were times,
i love you
is enough to make her fear.
yet there were times,
i love you
is enough to bring her tears.
yet there were times,
a gance
is enough to make her shudder.
yet there were times,
a smile
is enough to hurt her.
yet there were times,
something from you
is just so enough.

i really.... hate you for the way you control my life.