if you care deep enough, you would have known that i minded all that. you should have known. and not do that for the second time. not throwing my temper. just to let you know how disappointed i am. in you. the trust that you once gained, which are all totally shattered in just a mere second. by your actions. yes. you did it. and i know that. use your brains. if you wished to be so close to her, do it PRIVATELY. not in the PUBLIC. you are allowing everyone to witness it. witness how lovey-dovey you are. yes. that's MY inference. MY interpretion. MY thoughts. and somehow, i got immuned to all this. to your actions. or should i say, feelings come much much slower. and goes off quickly? yeahs. all thanks to you, mister. you had immuned me totally. your words and actions. are feelingless to me now. dont blame me. i just, cant. and couldnt. and dont wish to feel anything. thank you so much. for stregthening my immunity system. thank loads. for once, i feel like screaming to you. let go. and dont play with me like little kids would to toys. serious. you know i hate them all. yet, why did you choose to do all that? why..... i hate you. i really. really. really hate you so muchh.............. i hate you for the way you barged into my life and fill it up with you and yourself. making it so full. so full. i hate you for making me so paranoid for every moment. every minute. every second. i hate you. i really really hate you.

最近
你最近不说话 怎么了 为什么 是不是有什么事让你不快乐？
听说你最近很孤单 有点乱 有点慌 可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要得我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合 也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束 不要再痛苦 下一次 会有更好的情路。

scars will take time to heal. blood will take time to dry. smile will take time to shine. and i will take time to forget. sorry. i have to let go. i cant... trust myself to be able to go one anymore...

when i was bitten the second time, i know. it bites. yet, why do i still holds on to it, hoping it wont bite me one day?