if i wish a little harder, will my wishes come true?
if i'm willing to show a little more concern, will everything still happens?


totally bummed. if i dont insist things on my way, things might not even happen. issnt it?


you didnt know. how much i bothered about your reactions. your reactions towards everything. i thought. that day, you would, at least, rebuke yourself. and defend yourself. but.. you didnt. it really hurt me. it really shaken my faith. i thought... that you dont bother anymore. you dont care anymore... and once again, fear engulfed me. but still.. you managed to find me in that corner, emo-ing by myself. you managed to reassure me. really. you did. by having you beside me... it's enough. by having you there, i really know.. i could trust you again.

but things started coming. she mentioned that you accompanied her home. mentioned how close you two are................... i thought i could act as if nothing is happening. and i could face everyone with that idoitic huge smile plastered on my face. i thought i would be feeling better that way. and.... nevermind. i still feel that tinge of tiredness and sickness in me. that very minor tinge. i guess, that's just a sign showing that i'm still a living human who can think and feel ehhs? hahas.

there's something between us... something that you choose to hide. something that i choose to avoid.