killer. dead. not much to talk about exams. same sentence from teachers. can pass. just whether you can get your distinction. gawd. bummed my emaths. yeahs. and is super totally disappointed. didnt work up to expectations. mr teo say so too. gawd. amaths. aint any better. not a single confidence. lit. didnt finish. 1hr 20 mins, 3 essasy. :( rest is arghs. forget it. :(


betrayer. backstabber. topic of the day.

just realised. that there are ALOT backstabbers and betrayers around. those who claimed to be your best friend. betrayed you. those who you think wont hurt you, hurt you like hell. those you think you could trust, played around with your trust. people may seems close to one another. however, how close are they actually? the way they claimed of? the way they seems to be? ha. illusions. i call that. or should i say... they dont bother much. maybe, they dont even care who you are to them. as long as they dont hate you to the extent that they feel like running after you with a knife, you are consider safe. safe in the way that you can act buddy with them. but they are just talking bad about you every moment you arent around with them. fake issnt it? wondering how can people survive in that manner. how they could laugh and joke around with one another when they just dislike the person so much.

or should i say, they dont hate them. by nature, they dont hate them for their character. instead, they hate them for the way their character bring them... fame? the way they are well-known by people? jealously in short. how much can a feeling do... how much can it harm 2 people's relationship. or in this case, friendship. trust dont come that easily dudes. but why... why are people taking trust and faith from others as granted? dont they care a single hell about it? dont they care how deep they would hurt the person when they found out that they are being betrayed? if it's happening to them, dont they feel hurt too? just dont understand how the mind of those people work. and what they are thinking. dont they think of the consequences that will occur due to their actions or even words? foolish. or dont bother?

i rather believe that they dont bother. humans arent stupid. they think can? or should i say they got brains. just whether they think or not. since humans got brains to think. dont they think what would happen? dont they look at the big picture? nevermind. i dont know what hell i talking. just... 'amazed' by the fact that betrayers and backstabbers are just around...