i'm seriously going crazy and bonkers this very moment. what is the whole world coming to? i hate my life. seriously. i hate it so so much. i would be willingly to change it with someone else, whose life is more peaceful than mine.... cant, i just have a peaceful secondary school life? i just yearn to be like a little child. i just yearn to be happy. i just yearn to be acting like a spoilt brat, and not face all this stupid idiotic and tiring stuff. i dont want to act mature. i dont want to act like i'm happy. when all i want is to take a break and go into a deep sleep. i just, want to pon school for this very day, go to the beach or even to the arcade. i need a break. seriously. i dont care what is it about anymore. i seriously dont. just let me off, set me free. let me have a break. let me take a breath. let me at least, dont regret knowing all of you. i hate you. you. and you. for creating such huge chaos in my life. why must i know all of you? why must i get entangled in your stories? leave me out of everything please. i have no more strength to argue with you. neither do i have the ability to fight with you. nor do i have the will to go one anymore.... let me off. please. i beg you. just let me off from your scary claws. let me off your trap. let me survive on my own again... let's just end everything now and for all. i dont want to waste my 3 months, waiting and listening. i dont want. i just wish that.... everything will be gone soon. i'm pissed. and tired.........................................


when the one i loved so much leave me.
when the one i trusted so much hurt me.
when everyone beside me started changing.
when everything around me started go wrong.
when everything around me started to irk me.
i know...
it's time, i take a break.
and leave.


all i need,
is you to sit there by my side,
holding my hands tightly,
letting me know you would always be there like you promised.
let me play with your hands,
let my fingers touch yours,
and you would just be smiling.
although everything is quiet,
i know. that's love.
yet...
is it possible?


waiting for you is like waiting for rain in a drought, useless and impossible.


I WILL MISS YOU... MISS ONG. THANKS FOR MAKING MY COMBINED HUMANITIES LESSON FUN. THANKS FOR EVERYTHING YOU TEACH.