training training training.
3 days straight. wahhs. chao da!! ahahahs.
to add on to my already burnt neck, today was another hot day. ahahhs. and even yuxuan got burnt becos of the toxic sun yesterday lorr!! ahahahs. sadist. :X
was super tired lorr. ahahahs. then was grumbling like no one business like tt. ahahahs. zi high there all way. LOLS. did fa case. wahhs. i forget all lerr cann. =[ then footdrill. go bai sui lyk tt. ahahahs. my ke lian breakfast jus managed to last me till footdrill. =[ was super tired after tt. go back sj room almost go zzz while amelia go through home nursing wif juniors. laura(the faker P, fake ang moh) came. then was grumbling together about our trainings. OPPS. aahahaas. after training go lot 1 for late lunch. bud was super full after wanting gave a donut to me. CHOCOLATE-COATED DONUT cann? ahahahas. <33.
on the way to lot 1 saw clive, kenneth and a girl. wahhahahas. then walk dono how many steps only saw zhanning and fren. foodcourt saw shunting and fren. yanrong is so in love with this guy larr.. the whole meal she keep staring at him cann?? ahahahahs. say what she shy and stuff lyk tt. LOLS. tt girl is comical larr. was telling amelia how big headache she's gonna have for having such a comical group. LOLS. then wen pop saw stella TWICE. and shunting AGAIN. lols. then went TS find dvd to rent for our movie marathon. LOLS. went home n saw this bunch of ppl dressed up so nicely larr.. going for their prom. so cool.
at times, you drifted so far away... that i couldnt even see where you had gone.
i dont like people to think highly of me. i think... it's kind of stress. =[ working under people's expectations of you. having the responsibility of reaching that expectation. i hate it when people use ranks and senoirity to ask u to do something... cant someone grown up act childishly? cant someone immature act mature? hais. saying that we arent being forced. but, who really wishes to go for those trainings? and get ready for the competitions? we have to lead them. i dont deny the fact that we, as the seniors, have to do something for them. after all, they are being neglected due to us too. =[ but, how many of us wanted to come for trainings that frequent? how many of us were willing to spend time out and go for such tedious trainings? all they would say is i'm not forcing you. but common, the words you use. the phrase you use. it mean otherwise. =[ i hate protocol. i hate hierachy. i hate seniority. i hate propoganda. they say we wont be forced like how they were this year. they say we will be let off and the juniors will be training instead if the dates really clashes with our Os. issnt it better if they would spent much time on the juniors, and train them now. instead of forcing them suddenly when we realised we cant join in the competition? and what's more, i'm not interested to stake my studies for cca. yeahs. i admit my commitment towards it issnt that deep at all. i do admit. like what i had told him, once is enough. an experience once is just so enough for me. i dont ask for more. i just ask for more time to get ready for Os. and for more time to catch up with the studies i had neglected due to this year competition. but, are we being let off? are we allowed to show our displeasure? we arent. and life... is just like that. =[
ohyar, to that girl... dont see me as something so nice. i dont think i am that kind of girl you think i am...
3 days straight. wahhs. chao da!! ahahahs.
to add on to my already burnt neck, today was another hot day. ahahhs. and even yuxuan got burnt becos of the toxic sun yesterday lorr!! ahahahs. sadist. :X
was super tired lorr. ahahahs. then was grumbling like no one business like tt. ahahahs. zi high there all way. LOLS. did fa case. wahhs. i forget all lerr cann. =[ then footdrill. go bai sui lyk tt. ahahahs. my ke lian breakfast jus managed to last me till footdrill. =[ was super tired after tt. go back sj room almost go zzz while amelia go through home nursing wif juniors. laura(the faker P, fake ang moh) came. then was grumbling together about our trainings. OPPS. aahahaas. after training go lot 1 for late lunch. bud was super full after wanting gave a donut to me. CHOCOLATE-COATED DONUT cann? ahahahas. <33.
on the way to lot 1 saw clive, kenneth and a girl. wahhahahas. then walk dono how many steps only saw zhanning and fren. foodcourt saw shunting and fren. yanrong is so in love with this guy larr.. the whole meal she keep staring at him cann?? ahahahahs. say what she shy and stuff lyk tt. LOLS. tt girl is comical larr. was telling amelia how big headache she's gonna have for having such a comical group. LOLS. then wen pop saw stella TWICE. and shunting AGAIN. lols. then went TS find dvd to rent for our movie marathon. LOLS. went home n saw this bunch of ppl dressed up so nicely larr.. going for their prom. so cool.
at times, you drifted so far away... that i couldnt even see where you had gone.
i dont like people to think highly of me. i think... it's kind of stress. =[ working under people's expectations of you. having the responsibility of reaching that expectation. i hate it when people use ranks and senoirity to ask u to do something... cant someone grown up act childishly? cant someone immature act mature? hais. saying that we arent being forced. but, who really wishes to go for those trainings? and get ready for the competitions? we have to lead them. i dont deny the fact that we, as the seniors, have to do something for them. after all, they are being neglected due to us too. =[ but, how many of us wanted to come for trainings that frequent? how many of us were willing to spend time out and go for such tedious trainings? all they would say is i'm not forcing you. but common, the words you use. the phrase you use. it mean otherwise. =[ i hate protocol. i hate hierachy. i hate seniority. i hate propoganda. they say we wont be forced like how they were this year. they say we will be let off and the juniors will be training instead if the dates really clashes with our Os. issnt it better if they would spent much time on the juniors, and train them now. instead of forcing them suddenly when we realised we cant join in the competition? and what's more, i'm not interested to stake my studies for cca. yeahs. i admit my commitment towards it issnt that deep at all. i do admit. like what i had told him, once is enough. an experience once is just so enough for me. i dont ask for more. i just ask for more time to get ready for Os. and for more time to catch up with the studies i had neglected due to this year competition. but, are we being let off? are we allowed to show our displeasure? we arent. and life... is just like that. =[
ohyar, to that girl... dont see me as something so nice. i dont think i am that kind of girl you think i am...
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