when the world is filled with hyprocrisy. when you never knows who's the next one to hurt you. when everyone claimed something untrue. when innocent minds got corrupted by evil intentions. when simple human relations turned complicated.when you never knows who truly accepted you. when you never knows who's really what you claimed as friends. when those who claimed to be your best friends actually talked bad about you. when everything became wrong and bad... what's friends? what's love? what's acceptance? what's true?

today was another day i had my deep reflections. and this time round, it was on friends. all this started because of yeegin. asking me crazy questions about the definations of friends. and well, i think it's difficult to define a friend. true friend? i think it's impossible. or rather, hard.

what makes someone your true friend? what makes that person that special one? what makes you feel that she/ he is your true friend? the time you had spent together? the amount of deep secrets you guys share? the way she/he managed to make you feel fine and happy? people have different definations of true friends. or even friends. just like love. [:

i wont be sharing my long long definations of true friends. i'm sure most of you are getting real bored. but, like i said, it's one of my reflection day. [: bear with me though.

i was thinking. how many 'friends' i had out there are really my friends? how many accepted me for who i am? i once thought, is it ever possible that even my closest friend betrayed me once? hahas. is it ever possible that those who claimed of being my friends gossiped with others behind my back? i mean, human relations. why not?

when a friend could gossip about her/his best friend behind their back. saying how much he/her hated them. when a friend could be jealous of the best friend's glory or achievments, commenting that he/she is unworth of all the position and status. when a friend could even commented terribly on the best friend's attitude or behavior, saying it sucks like real hell and hated being with her/him. when a friend could actually shoot her/his mouth off about the best friend, just hoping to be more popular and well, IN with that other group. and the worst is that friend could even act as if nothing happened, and continue being best friend with him/her, claiming how close they were. nothing is impossible ehhs? just because the best friend of yours could give you what you want, just because the best friend of yours is one of the popular one in the school, just because the best friend of yours shares the darkest secret with you...

i never believe that such complicated humans relations do exist... in secondary school life. i mean, it's so tiring and difficult to solve.. and where, do all those 'innocent' minds went to? human politics just arghhs. tiring. when people backstab each other and fight all they could for something they want. love? glory? fame? popularity? friends? attention?

i just seriously dont understand those people... the ability of them acting well.. not showing their displeasure at all. and why... are people's mind getting corrupted every single day? and even kids... they are corrupted. :(