i always thought it would be better if you were to treat me as a stranger. not acknowledging each other's existence... i always thought i would make me forget everything faster, easier.. less pain. yet... i just realised.. it's enough for me. i dont know how long you would want to stay like this... maybe a few weeks. maybe a few months.. maybe until we are old.. i dont deny the fact that i'm hurting terribly inside. i never wanted us to be like this.. yet.. whose fault can i blame? i only knew the seriousness of the whole consequence after all the decision. foolishness. i know you might not even come here anymore.. you might not even want to know what happens to me anymore.. for.. you had already choose to ignore me.. even when we see each other on the roads... i really wanted to have the courage to go up to you and say hi. but.. i never had. you can say i'm regretting. you can say i'm remorseful.. yet.. what can i do now? i could just look at you leave.. i could just stand there hoping you would turn around... yet.. i choosen all this right? you might be laughing at me... seeing how foolish and worst i had made myself into. getting myself into this huge turmoil that i created myself. i cant blame anyone for all this. i just want... want to talk to you. again. i just want... to smile and say hi to you. i just want.... nevermind. i cant be craving for anything more. i can only be telling myself that it's the end... and we really have to be like this.. i could only tell myself it's alright.

all i want for this christmas, is you. and everything to be like last time.... yet santa seems unable to receive my wish.

坐在那看着云在天空飘着。
泪不自觉地流了下来。
风婆婆心疼地问：“小妹妹，你怎么了？”
我抬起头，微微笑了一下。
风婆婆又说：“来，别哭。告诉婆婆发生了什么事。”
我摇摇头。
风婆婆又劝：“婆婆答应帮你保密好吗？”
我看了看风婆婆一眼，便开口道：“我好想他。”
“他在哪里？”
指着天空，我又哭了。
风婆婆看了紧张起来了，“乖小孩，别哭别哭。他一定会回来的。”
我摇摇头说：“不会了。我让他走的。他一定是恨我才这么久都没回来。他不管我了。”
“傻孩子。如果知道自己会那么想他，为什么还让他走？”
我低下头，久久未出声。因为这个答案自己也不清楚。
“他对你很重要吗？”
我点点头。“我很爱他。”
“如果他回来了，你不要再让他走了好吗？”
“他不会回来了。你真的决定离开我了。这么久以来，他从没不管我。他从没抛下我就离开的。”
说完，泪又流了下来。
“婆婆帮你把他找回来好吗？”
我摇摇头。
“你不是很想他吗？”
“如果他想回来，一定会回来的。我不要逼他。逼他，他会不快乐的。”
“你呢？”
我微微笑了一下，“我没事的。他快乐就好了。”
风婆婆看了看我，叹了一口气。“你要风婆婆告诉他什么吗？”
“告诉他，他要快乐。告诉他，我知错了。”
“你不要他知道你还很爱他吗？”
我摇摇头说，“这个。。。婆婆你帮我保密好吗？”
“傻孩子。。。”风婆婆轻轻的摸着我的头，微微地说了。