wahhhs.
expectations. and stuff.

early morning we were asked to stay back
for a talk by mdm lee.
talked about target setting and achieving greater results by our cohort. :\

next, maths lesson.
mr teo told us that he will push us for As.
i remembered he told me once,
our class EM 100% distinctions.
AM at least 80%.
he says he will be pushing us real hard.
cutting off time that were actually needed.
which means,
a maths paper which last for 2 hrs,
he would cut off 5% of it.
subsequently, it would be 10% and so on.
scoldings would be received,
if you didnt perform up to standard,
make stupid careless mistake
and not having the correct attitude.
OUUCHS.

next, lit.
miss lee actually wanted 100% distinctions.
and averil bargained with her to 80-85%.
ouuchs.

chem.
in conference room.
the huge red chairs are comfortable lorr.
just give it a small push,
and you will glide in the room.
hahahs.

really couldnt take the tiredness.
i mean,
i can feel the tiredness in me larr.
i cant concentrate in class.
neither have i had the mood to do my work.
i dont want this to affect my studies.
it's not worth.
i only have to hold on to next week.
i hope...

the feeling of being __________ is great.
i'm sorry.
we cant be friends...
as our definations are totally different.
朋友是不能牵手的。
朋友是不能十指紧扣的。

was talking to cheungweng.
and he said something___________.
"Stalin they all died liao, study them for what?"
LOLLS.

i'm grateful for your attitude.
i'm grateful for your behavior.
i'm grateful for your consideration.
i'm grateful for your understanding.
yet i have to choose to tell you something.
sorry.
i need a break.

and of course,
i really want to thank my clique.
they really stood up for me like nothing. :D
thanks!!
love love. :D <3.
thanks for respecting my decision, thanks for understanding why i choose all this.
thanks for holding on to your anger, when all you want is to go up and give him/her a tight slap.
because you know i would be more hurt,
because you know i doesnt want it to be in this way.
because you had always thought how i would feel.
because i know i'm being loved by you.
because you guys are the best.
because you guys are the one i always loved.
for you are always there for me.
for you are the one i could take down my mask.
for i know you guys will still love me even when i acted like a huge jerk.
for i know you guys will knock senses into my mind.
for you guys really rocks.
thanks yenteng,
thanks yeegin,
thanks yuling,
thanks cindy,
thanks amelia.
of course,
thanks danielle,
thanks yuxuan,
thanks jianlun.
thanks for those, who knocked my head when i was real down.
letting me come into senses.
thanks for those, who teaches me how to face everything.
although it might seems totally wrong.
but i know...
you guys care.
and lastly,
thanks jun.
thanks shannon-jie.
thanks dude.