maybe if you are willing to tell me,
i would then be able to know what's troubling you.
what's the cause for that frown on your face.
what's the reason for the avoidance you gave.
what's my choice left.

grow strong. please.

lessons. what's there to speak about?

PE was height and weight.
dangs. :\
always dreaded that. :\
measured.
nothing much to talk about.
grow tall though.
0.5 cm. :D
borderline underweight.
dangs dangs. :\
had softball afterwards.
was nice and fun. :D

maths was...
pathetic?
lols.
everyone was dead tired.
for dont know what reason.
i was ultra exhausted.
right after recess.
and i just feel like letting the ultra heavy head down onto the table.
but i still managed to hold on until mr teo finishes going through the homework.
he sensed that everyone was lethargic
and he stopped teaching.
he ended lessons at 1.45 like that.
and most of us just go 'pong' onto the table.
slept right through until 2.
when he rushed everyone out of the class for lunch.

had literature in container classroom.
was ultra hot.
sauna-ing inside lor.
quite fun.
when is literature never fun? :D

maybe i got too pampered.
by my friends.
my family.
and pratically everyone.
maybe that's why.
i never choose to admit my errors,
i dont have the courage to admit my mistake,
when i know deep down that i had to.
when i'm feeling terrible...
i wanted.
i wanted to,
to go up to you and give you a big smile.
to ring up your number and say i'm sorry.
it's difficult.
and never easy.
when i know all you would say is,
it's alright.
i dont put it in my heart.
maybe,
if you choose to be harsher to me in the beginning.
i would be able to face all this myself.
and not wonder there,
how are you?
are you okay?
do you need someone there?
and doing nothing at all,
but to stare into the blank,
thinking of you.

it's either you pamper me the whole way. or leave me to my own defence in the beginning.
since you have choosen to pamper me from the start.
continue.