yesterday was a turmoil for everyone. the phone didnt stop ringing. every call seems to be confirming everyone's fear. all of us rushed down to the hospital at midnight... he had agreed for another surgery. a surgery that would cost him his life. yet, he was not afraid. knowing how worried everyone was, he managed a smile and say, 'dont worry, i will be fine.' not wanting ah po to worry, he reminded us not to tell ah po anything. doctor gave him a 20%. everyone was waiting in silence, outside the operation theatre. no one was sleeping no one was resting. everyone was just staring at the door of the operation theatre... finally, the doctor came out. he told us that the surgery was a success. the next few hours are the most crucial... same old cliche words. he say his illness would be stabilised... the doctor continued, flooding us with bad news that were too much to take. ah gong, wake up please. you know how cold is SICU? so wake up kays? dont stay in there anymore. please, wake up...

no one knows how to break the bad news. the adults doesnt know how to tell us, how to prepare us for the worst and yet in the same time not affecting our studies. the kids doesnt know how to cheer the adults up, telling them ah gong will be fine. the doctor doesnt know how to tell us what would we be expecting, with tears filled in our eyes threatening to fall with every sentence he mentioned. everyone was silent, praying quietly for ah gong's recovery. you will be fine. i know you will be. you will hold on until you see me graduate right? you will be fine. i know... you will.

life will be hetic now. everyone take care. ah gong, stay strong.

亲爱的公主，不要害怕。你要勇敢，要学会坚强。没事的。