loads of stuff have happened during the period where i go hiatus to study for Os. and well, i guess most of them needed my attention now.

i may have done the wrong thing. or should i say, a crazy thing one normal being should not have ever commited. it's been long since everything dragged, and i guess you yourself know that. it's not the topic of coming back 8 months later. it's not about who is winning this game. it aint never a game to start of with. you are strong. i dont deny it. at least, you aint being a whiny in front of everyone. maybe, everyone should get the correct side of the story. not saying that the story everyone heard is wrong. but... nevermind. i know what i did was terribly wrong. i know i am at fault for whatever chaos created. yet, dont deny the fact that everyone's at wrong. i'm not going to harp of the third part topic for it had all been past. neither am i going to go around saying i'm not at fault. or he's not at fault. everyone is. everyone do shares the equal part of blame or maybe even more. yet, i had choosen to walk this route and i've already known what would become of me. hatred look from everyone. or even, the lost of my very best friends. maybe you guys think i'm nonchalant, maybe you guys think i'm being bitchy or what-so-ever, yet what do you want me to do? it had happened and nothing could be done to save it. since i choosen it, since i had done it, i shall just stay strong and go on.

for those who wish to reconsider our friendship, i wont force you. yet, if we were once true friends, i hope for your support. but if you think it's a taint to you, by all means tell me.

i'm not being nonchalant.
i'm not being bitchy.
i'm not being an idoit.
i'm just tired about everything.